Sarah Neely

"This is Me, Please Accept Me For Who I am"

Sarah Neely
"This is Me, Please Accept Me For Who I am"

This is me, just please accept me for who I am. This shoot was the most confident shoot I've ever done. I recently turned 31 so I wanted to do an alter ego shoot to share with you how much I truly accept me now. 30 was a big change for me. I wasn't ready to turn 30 because i did not have my life together. I was a single mom who doesn't get much help from the father of my child. My job which is my main source of income cut my hours drastically, so I had to cut back on a lot of things that I enjoyed doing. Luckily, It's Fashion called me just in time last year a week before my 30th birthday. This was perfect because I really wanted the job for the retail experience and also extra cash to start-up my business, but of course that didn't go as planned because I had to use the money to take care of me and my daughter. Omg the year I turned 30 was the worst. My car ended up getting repossessed and luckily I had help to get it back. I was behind on my rent and had to get help to catch up because I almost got evicted. I even stressed so bad that I started pushing people away from me that truly meant a lot to me and wanted the best for me. Over that time, I lost friends that I truly loved and cared about. It felt as if my entire life was falling apart but I decided to pick myself up and start focusing on the things I really enjoyed doing (styling and blogging) and even made some money from it.

Moreover, I learned that despite being thirty I was still insecure with my body and my mind. For instance, I used to hate my breasts because they were relatively small so I would often tug on my clothing or fold my arms hoping people wouldn't notice how small they were. Then I just said fuck it, these are my breasts and I love them, they are me. They fit my small body frame so why was I worried about what others think of me so I just started wearing shirts that showed a little cleavage and taking more photos with my top or blazer open. I'm now comfortable when walking in a room, wearing any type of clothing. I'm finally happy with my body, knowing that I'm still very sexy.

I used to think that in order to keep a guy I would have to take care of him and have sex with him to make him stay with me. I used to think hey if I had sex with my man then he wouldn't mind doing things for me, even though many times I didn't even feel like having sex. I thought sex would save all of my relationships, even if the guys were not a fit for me or if the guys didn't care for me like that. Over the years, I've had good relationships and bad relationships. I've been with guys who would give me the world but I would take advantage of them because they felt like my sex was really good, so I would just sex him happy and make them happy so they would take care of me. Nevertheless, I learned that this woman wasn't who I wanted to be anymore. I didn't want to just have sex with my man or friend guy whom I was talking to during those times, so now that I'm 31 I want more out of a relationship and for myself. I want to be able to just be happy in a relationship without compromising my morals to please my wants and their needs. I'm not talking about any specific person I've been with, just simply referring to people I've been with in my life. I am now open to express my flaws because I'm now embracing them through something I love so dearly and it's Fashion.

Now that I'm 31, I can truly say that I'm finally happy with my body and embracing the choices I have made in my life. Some were good and others bad, but they have made me into the lady that I am today. I still have a lot to work on but I'm learning to accept things for what they are. I'm learning that I'm not perfect and I make fucking mistakes but I'm not the person of my past. I'm more positive and optimistic now, more focused and determined, even more honest with myself and the people I want in my life. I'm more free to be me now, and no one can take that away from me. I'm learning to say no more to things I don't agree with or like. I now have a voice and I'm not afraid to speak on anything anymore. This is my life now and 31 has changed me into a better me. This is my Naked Truth.  

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

Photograph by Divian Conner

All White

PANTS:  (Old, Missguided)

Top:  (Sold Out, Nasty Gal)

Shoes:  (Hanifa)

BAG:  TJ Maxx

CHOKER:  (It’s Fashion Metro)

All Black

Top:  (Sold Out, Missguided)

PANTS:  (Nasty Gal) HERE

BAG:  (TJ Maxx)

CHOKER:   (It’s Fashion Metro)

Blazer:  (Sold Out, Nasty Gal)