A lot has happened (both good and bad) since the last time I blogged, so of course I am going to fill you all in. The last time I blogged I mentioned I was having a fashion show. The fashion show was a huge success, not money wise but for my career. I was able to take on challenges I never thought I could. In addition, I was able to put a modeling, makeup, production, and hair team together to bring my vision to life. It was truly amazing seeing how many people wanted to be involved in something I believed in. Moreover, the fashion show allowed me to showcase my talents when it came to styling, in order to show not myself but the world that I am more than just another woman who takes photos and shares her personal style. Styling is something that I do and I love with a passion. By doing this show I learned a lot about myself. I learned I can make things happen with only $100 and I learned that its ok to ask for help and to delegate others to do things that I think I can’t handle. Of course, that is truly hard because I’m a perfectionist, it’s hard for me to trust people with my ideas and bring them to life. I learned that things will go wrong at the last minute. I had an event planner cancel on me three days before the show because they were not able to bring my vision to life. A lot of people who attended the show and who was a part of the show did not know this because I had some amazing people behind me to help deliver a great stage and seating for all the guests. I also had a few models drop out of the show at last minute so I had to make changes for the scenes at the very last minute. I had pieces missing from the wardrobe so I had to cut a few models out of the scenes (my fault). I wasn’t able to deliver the images of my styling work on the stage because there were not enough photos to create my vision (I will achieve this one day). I had an investor who helped make this show possible in which she took a major loss due to the ticket sales not being met ( I will repay her very soon). At the end of the show someone stole all of my liquor (like what motherfucker will do some shit like that). I lost a lot of sleep the entire weekend of the show. I was up for a full 24 hours (thank God for the strength and coffee lol). I had an assistant come down from Birmingham who mentioned she was very interested in fashion so I wanted her to have the opportunity to work behind scenes but instead the bitch stole $20 from one of the makeup artists because she was supposed to go to the store to bring back water and Gatorade (then the bitch had the nerve to text she had to go back to McDonalds because she left her debit card). Now let me tell you how God work, I was going to cash app the hoe some money to get a few dress racks but I’m glad I didn’t. Like it made me look bad because I gave her an opportunity but you stole from someone who was assisting with my show. Nevertheless, overall the show was a success in my book because I didn’t give up and there were times when I just was like fuck this show but I knew I had a purpose and that was see the amazingly beautiful models and talented people involved work to be noticed. Now you will say things must have gotten better for you after the show. Yes and no. Yall I went into a deep depression. I literally stopped doing a lot, I started eating and sleeping more and more every day. I didn’t want to do anything nor be around anyone. I didn’t care about my appearance let along fashion. Fast forward, I mentioned I moved out of state for a new job, so I have not had my own place of living. Over time, the fashion show started milking my paycheck so I wanted to truly get back on my feet before jumping into another bad situation and risking getting evicted again. For those that didn’t know, I was evicted from my apartment approximately a year and a half ago due to me losing my job, so shit like that happens when you cannot pay your bills. You would think I have it all together when in reality this woman can dress it up and make it seem like my life is going really well. I was at the point I was tired of living with people and felt like I cannot be creative because I was not in my own personal space. Now you’re probably thinking why? It’s because I am a very private person, when I’m being creative I have things everywhere from clothes to shoes. As a result, I wasn’t able to be me anymore. My clothes are everywhere from my car to my parents and sister’s houses. I wanted to style, I wanted to get dressed up and take photos for my blog. I wanted to be able to get in my car and not have things everywhere but I just couldn’t. To make matters even worse, my daughter didn’t move with me. She lives with my little sister so every weekend that I am off I went home because I had to make up for the times I’m not there. That shit was really taking a toll on me mentally and physically. People will say it’s the sacrifices you make, things with get better but I was hearing all of that but at the same time I wasn’t listening because I was in that state of mind I really want to give up. Now that I am officially trying to get it all together, there is the issue where I mentioned I have gotten evicted so it’s on my credit making it even harder for me to find an apartment. Getting calls from apartment complexes thinking you may have gotten approved but you hear the words “Sorry Ms. Neely due to your past credit history we will not be able to approve your application”. I’m like damn, I have a good paying job and I can make the payments so that put me in a deeper depression, it’s like damn I’m finally on my feet but my past keeps holding me back. I removed myself from social media and just focused more on me and what my purpose was but then I realized, this was not end, something will come through for me because I began looking at my situation deeper. I am more blessed then I even realized. Two years ago, I was working dead end jobs, but now look at me I have good paying job so I can definitely can overcome this. Two years ago, who would have thought I could put my own fashion show together with no money. Two years ago, who would have thought I would have family to help me get my life together by helping raise my daughter. Two years ago, who would have thought I will be living my dream as a fashion mogul. I started working more on a company I had started 3 years ago but never launched because it was my baby. It was something sacred to me and I wanted it to be perfect. It’s a company in which every person in this world deals with but are not comfortable talking about. It’s a company for women who should be naked in their truth, built by their vulnerability and perseverance. No longer must we accept society's judgments, it’s time for us to challenge it. The company is called Naked Truth. Everyone’s truth will not be the same yet will be relatable. I am living my Naked Truth right now by being opened with what I have been dealing with the last few months. Naked Truth is an online retail business not boutique but retail business that every woman across the world will be wearing. Naked Truth is your lifestyle and also my lifestyle. We are here to change society way of thinking and it starts with us speaking our Truth. R U Naked?
I know this was a very long blog post and many may scroll over it or just view the pictures and then there are the select few who will read this but either way I appreciate you for taking the time out to check out something I felt the need to talk about.